Dear Diary,

I made a friend today, we met online. She’s all the way from America. She’s quite funny and I don’t know how but she is one of the most sweetest people I have ever met. She is so kind, The definition of kill them with kindness! Not only that she can have a conversation like a real conversation where I don’t have to break my back trying to talk.

From Raven

13th of Feb 2021

Dear Diary,

Holy shi*, I have gone and caught myself some feelings. SHE IS AMAZING! And I know the last person I had feelings for she was amazing too but she didn’t do what..let’s call her Wonder Woman but WW for short. WW makes me feel just I can’t even find the right words. She is lighting up my world. She is making things clear as to why no one else worked out.

From Raven,

20th of Feb 2021

Dear Diary,

Oh my heart, it’s my birthday today and this woman has honestly swept me off of my feet. My birthday has always sucked and I never liked it. This being one of the worst because I had been feeling down and just over whelmed with thinking of my birthday. I actually feared she may leave me on my birthday two so I thought I wouldn’t say anything. Though I slipped up somewhere and she seen it on Snapchat. But a day of dread turned into a day of light, love and I really did felt special. She makes me feel special everyday but the things she said. I just I hope things work out.

From Raven

23rd of Feb 2021

Dear Diary,

She told me I make her feel so much. That she feels love that this is what she wants. But she’s not going to tell me those three words because she wants to do this right. So she asked me if she can come here to visit. She doesn’t want to ask me to be hers yet until we are in person and have the same feelings in person. I do fear she may not like me in person but the way she makes me feel puts that fear in a box to be forgotten.

From Raven

6th of March 2021

Dear Diary,

I’m in love. It’s been just over a month and I’m in love. I honestly have no clue how to explain it but today I knew. She stole my heart and is keeping it safe. WW is definitely who I want to spend my future with. I want a future with her. I want to grow a family with her. She feels the same way. She shows it in the way she talks to me and treats me. It’s on her actions. I told her about my past assaults and her reply. That’s it. She’s my person she’s the one!

From Raven

20th of March 2021

Dear Diary,

My girl is having a few off days I just wish I could be there physically. I want to be there to hold her, help her around the house. She deserves the world and I want to give it to her. I hate COVID. I hate being miles apart. I hate not being able to do anything for her. She’s not a talker in these times she needs the physical side of it and I’m not there. Why is it so hard. She’s worth everything I don’t doubt that. I just wish I was there for her.

From Raven,

2nd of April 2021

Dear Diary,

How does this woman continue to make me fall in Love more and more each day? How does she make me love more than I ever I though I could? Can you have a heart attack from loving to much? How did I get so damn lucky? I still have my moments where the dark thoughts take over and they tell me she’s going to leave me like everyone else, that she doesn’t feel the same as me. I still have those and without her knowing she quiets them down and makes them go away. I don’t even tell her that they exist. She really is the one I wanna grow old with.

From Raven

16th of April 2021

Dear Diary,

I love this woman and I can’t wait until we finally book that first flight. When it’s safe and her mama is better. To be continued

From Raven

19th of April 2021