Everything happens for a reason

Utter shit

A glimpse of happiness, ripped out of me

Viciously

Time moved at a fast crawl

There one moment and gone the next

Her eyes that never got to open and see my face. Her tiny mouth that never made a sound. Legs that didn’t stretch or run. Arms that never begged to be picked up

Sometimes in the silence I can hear her heart beating.

Only an echo.

What reason? What reason brings death and misery?

Dashing hopes makes us yearn again? There is no reason.

There will never be a reason.

I strain for reason every day. Every hour. Every minute, every second even.

She’s still gone.

My arms are heavy with the emptiness. My once blooming belly softer…flatter.

I don’t want a reason. None are enough.

She was the reason. Now she is nothing. She is the foggy memory of dreams.

She is everything. I am nothing.

Everything happens. Reason matters not. Just keep breathing.

In

Out

In

Out

Maybe some day it will make sense. But it won’t have happened for a reason.