Wandering in this abyss

Wondering if there’s more to life than just this

It’s cold but I’m used to it

At first I was trying to find love and

Money

But now I’m looking for anything

Anything to fill this hole

It’s been forever sense I’ve felt whole

It’s been forever sense I’ve had a soul

It’s been forever sense I haven’t felt cold

I hate being alone

It’s been forever since I haven’t been alone

Codependent

The most

So I’ve been told

But I think I’m doing pretty good alone

The ice is burning my feet

On the surface

But I’m in too deep

A cabin I see in the distance

Same cabin I’ve been in before

But something’s different

It’s warm

And doesn’t set off a alarm

In my head

It lifts all the weight off my chest

But takes down all my defenses

Crack

What?

Crack

No no no no

Crack

I’m too high to fall

Crack

I refuse to fall

Crack

Crack

My shoes are stuck on the cracking ice

But I manage to lift my feet up

I refuse to die

Atleast not without a fight

Cabin just in sight

I managed to move

And even run

The warmness of the cabin gives me strength

Only about 30 feet away in length

Crack

Splash

And in a flash

I’m underneath the ice

It pulls me in deeper

Trying to swim up

But I’m just going deeper

Meter by meter

I keep going deeper

So close to salvation

But too far as well

Stuck in a 21 foot well

But outside is my destination

The irony

So close

But too far

They were right there

But I was too far for them to save me

If I only I was a little close they would’ve heard me fall in

All of this could’ve been avoided

If I just never fallen

From heaven to hell

A breathe my last breathe

Think my last thoughts

Before I drown

I look up and see someone peer over me

I could see them but

They couldn’t see me

I was too deep

They couldn’t see me

They walk away and there goes my last chance to live

If only I kept trying to swim

But I’m too deep in

So close

But too far