i was invisible

and when i wasn’t

i was ugly

i was disgusting

i was a parasite

but when he told me

i was beautiful

that i was so gorgeous

that he couldn’t believe i couldn’t see it

i believed him

it was a slow turn

one from a kind stranger

to a stranger who haunts my thoughts

i couldn’t have seen it coming

i was blinded by the way he loved me

the way he turned every truth into lies

i loved that man

or i thought i did

i was 10

a child

he was 20

a man

we didn’t fall in love

he tricked me

and once again,

i was the fool