i was invisible

and when i wasn’t

i was ugly

i was disgusting

i was a parasite

but when he told me

i was beautiful

that i was so gorgeous

that he couldn’t believe i couldn’t see it

i believed him

it was a slow turn

one from a kind stranger

to a stranger who haunts my thoughts

i couldn’t have seen it coming

i was blinded by the way he loved me

the way he turned every truth into lies

i loved t...

I wanna be ripped from this life,

ripped from this existence

I wanna feel the aching pain of my body tearing to shreds i wanna scream so loud my body can’t hold it i wanna die so beautifully and so gruesomely

i wanna feel the pain of a million stars

i wanna feel the pain

i wanna feel...

It’s a well known secret,

the things you do

take me in.

make me yours.

tell me im disgusting,

that only you could love me

tell me im pretty,

that only you can see it

I fell in love with the way you loved me,

the way you twisted words and spouted lies

it's hard to leave a girl like you

especially when you were all I knew

I know I am the fool

for falling for such a well known secret...

if only

i were home

if only

you were here

we would be sitting at scoops

eating strawberry swirled ice cream

at that same picnic table

with that same silly smile

we would be at your house

on your swing set

staring out at the fields

or maybe at the stars

we would be in your back yard

climbing up that tree

collecting our bowl of berries

or in my yard

doing the same

we’d be sitting in your roo...