You say ur always there to help me

But why do I feel so hopeless

It’s all my fault

I know I’m selfish

Stand alone

My soul is jealous

It wants love but I reject

Trade my joy for my protection

Take my hand and help me

But I’m still drowning

Why hasn’t anyone found me

I hold myself to proudly

Traumas they control me

I wish I could let go

You say ur here

But I don’t feel it

Give me peace but then my past steals it

They all laugh so I hold onto secrets

Scream and shout but I’m feel speechless

I can’t ask for help

You say it’s weakness

Bottle up the way I’m feeling

Ask for peace

but I choose torment

I’m so lost it’s getting helpless

I’m live fast no time for healing

Grab my hand

I’m still drowning

Why hasn’t anyone found me yet