life is full of misunderstandings.

especially when youre like me, someone who cant express how they feel.

i could say one thing, and mean something completely different and not even realize.

i think this is why we fight so much.

i think this is why it feels like he is starting to resent me.

as days go by i can feel his love slipping away, silently.

it started off subtle, the hugs getting shorter, he takes longer to respond.

our sex life went downhill. he started being on his phone more when we were together. all the typical things a guy does when he falls out of love.

how do you even address something like this?

it feels like every time i adress a concern of mine, it becomes an argument. either i shouldnt feel a certain way, my opinion is outright wrong, or both.

this is where the misunderstandings come into play.

as somebody who gets very emotionally attached, its easy to overthink. when i overthink, i reach to him for reassurance.

i guess he got tired of it over time, because i barely get any anymore.

its as though he started interpreting my strong feelings as an inconvenience, a roadblock keeping him from peace.

it kills me, yearning for the reassurance and getting nothing.

but i cant he without him. i need him. i crave him.

every time we are apart i wish he was holding me close, and lately i wish for that even when we are together.

“please dont walk away” i say nearly biweekly after i express a need he doesnt want to meet.

he looks straight through my eyes into my soul as he tells me this relationship is draining.

i suffocate him.

im exhausting.

im too much.

the list goes on.

but little does he know im doing my best.

this miscommunication has led to my world falling apart.

i would rather die today, than watch him walk away.

the misunderstanding that cost me my life.