12/08/2022
what am i supposed to do? my best friend, someone who ive never seen as anything more, the one who ive loved platonically for the past eight months just confessed his feelings for me. i dont know if i feel the same way. dont get me wrong, hes great. but im terrified of ruining the connection we already have. im a great friend, but im not a good girlfriend. i have way too much past damag...
As the darkness sank into her veins she felt the evil take her over.
She was no longer the sweet, kind hearted girl he fell in love with.
After he screwed her over too many times making her feel like she was inadequate, she was done.
Enough was enough.
The disrepsect became unbearable.
After that fight, the one he didnt know would be their last, she started picking up her things that were sca...
“you’d have to be an absolute fool to believe that!” my best friend ali says to me, looking at a text i got from my boyfriend.
the text reads, “i promise ill never leave.”
from both of our experience, that promise is never kept. by any man.
“i dont know, i have a good feeling about him” i said to her.
she laughed and we went on with our night.
as the relationship progressed, my good feeling st...
take it from me, every guy should ALWAYS worry about the boy best friend, and every girl should worry about the boy best friend.
because i was the girl best friend, and he was the boy best friend.
i refused to believe we could be anything more, it never even crossed my mind.
even after the eight months straight that we spent hanging out, the times we slept together in the back of his car, the “...
just like that, it was over.
the person i had spent seven months devoting myself to, giving everything i had, removed from my life. without a trace.
without a trace, except the dead roses that lined my wall.
he used to buy me flowers. when he loved me.
rather than throwing them away when they died, i would hang then from a picture frame on my wall, so i could remember his love whenever i quest...
life is full of misunderstandings.
especially when youre like me, someone who cant express how they feel.
i could say one thing, and mean something completely different and not even realize.
i think this is why we fight so much.
i think this is why it feels like he is starting to resent me.
as days go by i can feel his love slipping away, silently.
it started off subtle, the hugs getting sho...
he always overthought the idea of me getting pregnant.
every time we would have sex, hes never pulled out. not once.
i can see why it would freak him out, but ive had an IUD since i was 14, and im 18 now.
i still have a year and a half left. it should be working.
a year of unprotected sex almost every day with the same person without a second thought, you dont think it can happen to you. until...
i feel pathetic.
why can i never leave? why does everyone leave me first?
maybe im the problem. i thought i was just meeting bad people. but i guess its just me. thats the only answer i have left.
maybe its because i fall too hard, cry too much, love too deeply.
or maybe its my overthinking. the way i feel like he doesnt love me if his tone is off or if he says we spend too much time together....
i think i just met the happiest person in the world!!
she is the complete opposite of me. hair that shines instead of getting greasy after one day, a perfect button nose, flawless hourglass figrue and a forehead that isnt the first thing that people notice about here.
but she wasnt only happy because of her looks. she had the perfect life. she is type of girl that makes me crazy. 
her boyfrien...
