To live in a box is to feel the pain inside

It is the reason we feel trapped in our own minds

Our thoughts rip us apart

From the inside out

I am my own prey

Without a doubt

My future feels suffocating

My lung start to squeeze

I see everyone accomplishing something

I beg to myself, please

Hurry it up

You have work to do

No time to dream

Think of the time you’ll lose

In the midst of 14

I feel eternally lost

Trapped in a maze of my own thought

Every doubt is a dead end

An escape route is there, I pretend

But for who am I struggling for

Grappling for peace

A tug of war of sorts

Me on one side

My parents on the other

We are always at odds

To many reasons to count

Listen me I scream

Simply hear my out

But you only listen

Using your ears

Use your heart once

Try to see my fears

They may not be huge

But they’re there for sure

A voice in my head tells me I’m not enough

I haven’t done much

Not enough to count

I am only fourteen

But fourteen years I have lost

That is what scares me

That I’ll end up caged

In the prison, a maze

Of my own making

For I try to please

All the expectations I think you have of me

All I ask

Is that you hold me near

Tell me it is alright

That I am all I need to hold dear

I hope I’ll find peace

Find the reason I don’t wish to sleep

Find something that makes me feel alive

Something that can help me thrive

I want to see my future

Witness it first hand

But am I thinking too much ahead

Is there time enough to spare

To simply live life

To simply laugh?

You tell me

For I don’t know

I have been searching for an answer so I can feel at home

In the box I live in

To nurse my dreams

To give them rain and sunlight

And a place to sleep

I hold my dreams deep within my heart

Scared that if I voice then out

That will never be able to start

But with this I hold them in my hands

A silent offering

A white flag