Dear Julia

I know

I fucked it up

Can I be forgiven

I know

You can’t love me

Can I be forgiven?

It’s all I have to offer

You can’t love me

After what I did

It’s all I have to offer

To give you an explanation

After what I did

I still love you

To give you an explanation

I wanted to be honest

I still love you

After I told you

I wanted to be honest

I wasn’t satisfied

After I told you

I just wanted more love

I wasn’t satisfied

From your worries

I just wanted more love

I just wasn’t recovering

From your worries

Of whose watching us

I just wasn’t recovering

From the constant fear

Of whose watching us

Pretending like this wasn’t our time

From the constant

To the endless neglect

Parenting like this wasn’t our time

To be left alone

To the endless neglect

Of my own wants and needs

To be left alone

I’m in the cold

Of my own wants and needs

I gave you my jacket and

I’m in the cold

I praise you like the lord

I gave you my jacket and

Spectated as we fell in and out

I praise you like the lord

I still wonder how

Spectated as we fell in and out

Of my patient

I still wonder how

I still love you

Of my patients

Waiting for it

I still love you

From, your breaking lover