I wish I could solve The mysteries of the sky How they connect How we create constellations

The mysteries of the night Like how your hand Traced its way up to my thigh How will you make me feel

I wonder about the constellations Of your eyes How they reflect your heart

How I can see Your intentions With one look And I want you

So

Bad

I need you Kiss my neck Tell me I’m perfect Although we’re dying

Our day in the sun Is turning into the night And I’ll wonder again How are the stars

As I look up into the night It pains me to know You will be there soon And I will not

Do you not love me It’s like you can’t stand us And you just huff and puff And I can’t let it be

I push away in the beginning And eventually I get attached It’s like I need a patch And now I see the ending

To the story that never ends And the poem that lives on And the torch that keeps light

Now I pick up my pen And I’m no longer the pawn It’s time to end it on my own right

You gave me hobbies That made me passionate And then I hated it Because I hated you

You gave me sunshine That I would look out And then it was night And then I hated you

I gave you my life Just for you to Throw off a cliff Because you hated me

We were afraid to leave So I stayed forever And I hated you And I hated everything

It’s the constant state of mind Breathe in and out The cold or warm air I might Just sleep on the floor tonight

Begging for the closure There’s times it falls over But it gets up after an hour And I hate how we called it “ours”

Feel the cold air enter And I shiver then flinch When the warm air appears Then I hide till it clears

I’ve waited years for you To lead me on For me to write That I hate the window

Look I didn’t ask to be pick But truthfully None of us did

Welcome to The former lovers club Where we Were demoted to exes

Were you One where you were Together but broke up to be friends with benefits

Or one Where you never got closure Or one where- I know I’m getting carried away

Truthfully We all still feel the love In our bones But we hold onto the grudges

Like we craved for Her touch How do you feel You can talk to me

We’re all friends here We wouldn’t hurt you She hurt us too You can cry, we all did

You can write it on the paper Crying to death Because of a fucking Serial heartbreaker

You’ve made my life miserable I hear your name and I bawl I feel like Jeanette mccurdy Why’d you have to do me dirty

You hear my sobs You hear my cries for help You hear my screams You’re the only one that understands

I hate you when I don’t want you But in the end I need you

I love you so much That I can’t get away And ultimately I crave Loneliness

A lot of things keep me up at night Like the moonlight The moonlight shines through my window The moonlight keeps me pinned down

Sometimes I wonder if the moonlight If it knew it did something wrong or right Does the moonlight wonder if it haunts me That I can’t sleep at night and let it be

Moonlight used to be my safe spot Until feelings caught Moonlight breaks through my peace of mind Moonlight doesn’t wonder if it’ll be fine

A lot of things keep me up at night Moonlight takes over my mind all night Maybe I won’t be fine but that might be alright Cuz all was good before the moonlight

The moonlight never cared about me Or wonders how it haunts me Memories of the moonlight swirl inside of me Moonlight will never let me be

Moonlight cuts my mind like it’s paper Moonlight thinks it’s the better Moonlight is wealth and important and well liked Peaceful and prim and proper and could never do that

Watch as the wolves howl to the moonlight Cry as I lay in bed looking up into the night Afraid of the moonlight getting away My caution tape should have a say

Use my memories as a joke Make me shrivel up and choke Time washed away the black and blue Moonlight’s stages lies, wouldn’t have a clue

Many people like the moonlight I would rather live in spite Moonlight will keep me up at night I despise the moonlight

For breaking my peace of mind Moonlight will forever be my ghost Haunting my existence Never letting me go

(This was saved in my notes app)

Dear Julia I know I fucked it up Can I be forgiven

I know You can’t love me Can I be forgiven? It’s all I have to offer

You can’t love me After what I did It’s all I have to offer To give you an explanation

After what I did I still love you To give you an explanation I wanted to be honest

I still love you After I told you I wanted to be honest I wasn’t satisfied

After I told you I just wanted more love I wasn’t satisfied From your worries

I just wanted more love I just wasn’t recovering From your worries Of whose watching us

I just wasn’t recovering From the constant fear Of whose watching us Pretending like this wasn’t our time

From the constant To the endless neglect Parenting like this wasn’t our time To be left alone

To the endless neglect Of my own wants and needs To be left alone I’m in the cold

Of my own wants and needs I gave you my jacket and I’m in the cold I praise you like the lord

I gave you my jacket and Spectated as we fell in and out I praise you like the lord I still wonder how

Spectated as we fell in and out Of my patient I still wonder how I still love you

Of my patients Waiting for it I still love you From, your breaking lover

We lay under the night sky. “Oh that’s Hercules.” I point up at the denim colored sky. She looks at me, smiling and glaring up and down. Giggling to herself. “What’s so funny?” I question. “It’s nothing.” Scarlett answers, continuing giggling. “What?” I ask as I start giggling. She rolls over and starts tickling me. I roll around with my legs covering the stomach that the brunette girl is rubbing her hands across. “Stop.” I say, giggling with the hugest smile on my face. She stops for a second, still smiling to herself. I sit up. “Why are laughing?” I say, trying to keep my laughter behind me. “You’re such a nerd.” She giggles as she sits up next to me. “How am I a nerd?” I ask, smiling ear to ear. “You’re a cute nerd, you know everything about the stars and sky, I think it’s adorable.” The brown eyed girls glances down and then back at me. “I want to know this stuff.” She says as she grabs my hand. I rub my thumb on the side of her thumb. She squeezes my hand three times and glances at me with nothing but desire in her eyes. As if she knows if she knows that I’m thinking.