Say it with me

It is not easy to just leave

Not everyone has the same freedoms as me

Not everyone chose to live a life and not be free

Just me

I put myself in this position

Crippled under self submission

Forced to drag my aching

Corpse through all of this broken glass

These shattered memories I thought were made to last

I chose to see the best version of you

To suffocate the screaming inside of me

That knew

You were not the one for me

But I thought I could save you

I thought my purpose on this earth was to provide release

From every burden

To help them see what the world could have been

I thought I was meant to show them the way

To bring about endless happy days

I thought you’d do the same for me

In the end, it’s not actually me you see

You see the version of myself that is the most pleasing

The version of myself which worked to keep easing

The pain that is no one’s fault but your own

I’m alone

I’m alone with myself and no one above me

I don’t need roots to grow just the sky above me

I love myself in a way that no one above me

Can take

No one can take that away

When the time comes and another love approaches

It is my hope that they welcome me into their arms with no

Hope that I won’t reproach them

With no expectations

No limits

No weights

Just freedom and destinies intertwined

Simply fate

That they will stand two feet

Secure in their body

And give me a rock to lean on

When I’m not me

That they will give me the moon and the stars above

With nothing in their hearts but kindness and love

Because that’s all I ever had for you

For them

But never for me

I will love more powerfully than the cosmos

And deeper than the fabric of my soul can reach

I will sing louder with every breath in me

I will give them my all even if it kills me

Because I know they will do the same for every version of me

Only then

Will I be free