My life should be an epic

Is what my dad would say

Because he wants the best for me

He wants me to always seize the day

But every time I bring up ogres

Or demons that shot at me that day

He diverts back to my achievements

Eager to turn the other way

He was wounded long ago

So he works to keep his pain repressed

So he has zero interest in finding out

That I’m damsel in distress

So I stay upbeat when he calls me

Hide my empty behind the phone

Because it would make him much to sad to know

The depths of my alone

I know how much he loves me

And I always say we’re close

But can I say he really knows me

If he only knows half of me at most?

I hate that being honest with him

Feels like breaking the 4th wall

But I’d rather hide as a hero

Than not communicate with him at all

So ring ring! There goes the phone!

Again it’s just that time of night

I take a deep breath before I pick up

So I can get my story right

My life is not a fantasy

But to him pain is not ok

Oh how I wish that I coild tell him

About the dragons I don’t slay