If only I could endure the pain

Save you from these immortal chains

You don't deserve anything gore

But I deserve all of it and more

Who I used to be

Is still inside me

Trying to fight it's way out

Attempting to be loud

But I will never give in

I shouldn't be forgiven

For everything I've done

I had many victims; you were one

My regret will never be loud enough

I'm sorry, you were never tough

I put you through hard times

What I did was more than crimes

I never knew that I could do

So much harm to someone like you

I changed your world, and now it's true

I ruined it, I ruined you

I messed up your life

All the great and good times

I covered it with a web of lies

I realize now that was unwise

All the times I've seen you cry

Breaks me several times inside

I should stay away from you

Even when we were once stuck like glue

Our worlds were conjoined and then torn apart

I broke, and broke, rebroke your heart

I always wish we'd get to restart

But now your life is sour as a tart

What I did was tortured you

I can't believe I put you through

This harmful world, so true

All of this you endured

Worse than the tip of a sword

Worse than any hurtful words

I can't believe how you've matured

Nothing I did reassured

Your procedure

Now I know I won't get you back

My world, it spirals into black

I did things that I can't take back

Many positive things I lack

Doing things right isn't my forte

But I hope you'll live to see another day

Over and over again I pray

That you will finally be safe

I hope that you will stay away

I do more harm than I first relay

Ignore my pleas

Stay away from me

You have every single right to shun

I did things I shouldn't have done

But you don't shun instead you come

Near perilous, precarious, fatal me

Erase me from their memories

All those worries, thoughts and dreams

Endlessly crying a glistening stream

Please forget me

My point is that I accept defeat

I would take it back in a heartbeat

These things I did I won't repeat

I promise that I'll be discreet

If only I hadn't hurt you

If only I hadn't said things that weren't true

But I did, I did that, now you're lonely

If only, if only, if only...