it’s been one year.
it’s been one year.
the earth has circled the sun one time.
three-hundred and sixty five days without him.
thirty five million heartbeats.
i still am in shock.
in shock from how long it’s been.
in shock from how it’s not been long at all.
it felt like it all happened yesterday.
i haven’t cried once yet.
but i feel as if sorrow follows me.
they all ask me how i’ve been pushing through.
i spit out a lie, saying it’s tough.
but it’s not tough at all.
they ask how i feel,
about the cause still being not being identified.
i just sit there and shake my head.
they don’t know.
no one has caught onto me.
i have to hide a smile.
behind the blank stare,
is a heart without guilt.
it’s been one year.
the earth has circled the sun one time.
three-hundred and sixty five days without him.
thirty five million heartbeats.
since i murdered him.