Dear You,

I love you, but I have to let you go. I feel like our days together have come and gone and I have outwore my welcome. We don’t laugh with each other anymore and lately it seems like we only seem to tolerate each other. I truly wish you the best in all of your endeavors and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I admit that I violated your trust and that you will probably never really get over it. I feel like our relationship is never going to be the same again and it’s my fault. I admit my faults but it doesn’t feel good to be constantly reminded of my shortcomings and wrongdoings.

It hurts to even write this and I’m thinking about the kids as I do. They deserve better, and seeing us constantly going at it all the time is not healthy for anyone. I wanted this to work but after a while I truly felt in my heart that I was the only one afraid of losing in this situation. I don’t feel like you were ever scared of losing me. That made me really evaluate the situation. My therapist always asks me what it is that I want and I have never been able to answer that question. After truly praying and meditating on it, what I really want is to feel some level of reciprocity in a relationship. I want someone that loves me unconditionally and everyday. I know nothing is perfect and that sometimes relationships don’t always mesh, but a real partnership is supposed to have communication. I need a woman to be able to express herself and not shut me out whenever she can. Lately it feels like that comes easy to you. I often feel like an outsider in my own house. That hurts. I feel like shit sometimes when you are upset with me because, the kids get the love, the dog gets the love and I get….

I hope that one day you find a man that treats you the way you said I never did. I pray you find a man that protects you the way you said I didn’t. I wish nothing but love, success and peace into your life. I truly mean it.

Yours Truly,

Me