Dear You,
I love you, but I have to let you go. I feel like our days together have come and gone and I have outwore my welcome. We don’t laugh with each other anymore and lately it seems like we only seem to tolerate each other. I truly wish you the best in all of your endeavors and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I admit that I violated your trust and that you will probably never really get over it. I feel like our relationship is never going to be the same again and it’s my fault. I admit my faults but it doesn’t feel good to be constantly reminded of my shortcomings and wrongdoings.
It hurts to even write this and I’m thinking about the kids as I do. They deserve better, and seeing us constantly going at it all the time is not healthy for anyone. I wanted this to work but after a while I truly felt in my heart that I was the only one afraid of losing in this situation. I don’t feel like you were ever scared of losing me. That made me really evaluate the situation. My therapist always asks me what it is that I want and I have never been able to answer that question. After truly praying and meditating on it, what I really want is to feel some level of reciprocity in a relationship. I want someone that loves me unconditionally and everyday. I know nothing is perfect and that sometimes relationships don’t always mesh, but a real partnership is supposed to have communication. I need a woman to be able to express herself and not shut me out whenever she can. Lately it feels like that comes easy to you. I often feel like an outsider in my own house. That hurts. I feel like shit sometimes when you are upset with me because, the kids get the love, the dog gets the love and I get….
I hope that one day you find a man that treats you the way you said I never did. I pray you find a man that protects you the way you said I didn’t. I wish nothing but love, success and peace into your life. I truly mean it.
Yours Truly,
Me
In the heart of the city, under the neon lights Our paths crossed, igniting endless nights The smile on your face was more than I could bare I loved everything about you your voice, your touch, your stare I gave you my all, with nothing else to give You still took more, even my reason to live I hated you at times, you made me feel so low In the midst of the darkness, a glimmer began to glow What was this wind, this second chance at life It was true happiness, no frowns, no pain, no strife Could it be so true, Can I really feel this free Or is it a trap, another con from thee The love bombing drained me and left me depleted My kids and the dog were all that I needed. I will forever remember the times we argued, fussed and fight None of it would have been possible, without the city lights.
Everyone in the battalion was sleeping. You could hear the crickets chirping on a clear night. Suddenly there was a loud bang and then the ground began to rumble. All we could see was this bright red glow making its way from beneath the earth. Had the Devil returned to reclaim what was his? Then out of nowhere, what appeared to be some sort of mechanical cables began to surface as well. “What the fuck is that?”, Jones screamed as he fell to the ground. A giant claw opened and grabbed three of our men at one time like we were plush objects in an arcade machine. One of the officers looked with astonishment and screamed “Light this fucker up, what are you maggots waiting for an invitation?”
