Dark sand

As the tears stream down my face, I remember all our memories. I carry her in my arms, calling for help, but nobody answers. I sob and trip, but don’t fall, knowing I won’t get up. It was my idea to go swimming in the dark and it was my fault she drowned. He body was transforming to icy flesh rather than a beautiful body. I cried, knowing nothing will ever be the same. I still have a long way to go. I lost the car and I lost the love of my life. I had to walk forever. It was my punishment. Why was I such an idiot. I wished for her to come back. I wished I was smarter. I wished that my life would go back to the old days, but none of this will ever happen. I’m alone in this world and nobody can help me. The sand is pulling me down and I can’t stand any longer. I tumble to the ground and lose sight of her. I try to find her, flailing my arms, but I can’t see. I can’t hear. I can’t breathe. I’m feeling faint and I begin to pass out. I gift my last ounce of energy to think about my life before.