A loud excruciating silence now fills the atmosphere that once held and protected our most vulnerable past selfs. The deteriorating curtains fall slanted shielding the joys of the outside world. What use to be long walks to the park and endless amounts of freedom is now a black and white memory only you have the key to.

It’s a time I both loathe and ache for.

I miss hearing the ugly laughs that would burst out of our mouths, without a care in the world of what others may think. The excitement that rushed through our blood only fuelling our hearts, as we rushed to see one another. Thinking it was impossible to ever live our days without each other or to even put an end to this indispensable routine.

All before I saw the true intentions behind the jokes you used to wield against me. Now I can’t help but feel irritated by your presence, your voice, your laugh and the remarks you cruelly inflicted me with. The tears that were wasted in countless moments that were only then forgotten the next day.