I tell myself I’m grateful for the life I have, regardless of my circumstances. The major attachment issues, the crippling anxiety, gosh even the constant isolating feeling that poisons my heart more and more as the days grow longer.
I am grateful, but at what cost?
The unfairness that justifies itself as the bare minimum. The lack of empathy normalised behind the words “at least…”.
“My marria...
I laid frozen on the cold dead ground as my body completely shut down. Shivers flew down my spine as fear captured my mind and imprisoned it. My shaky hand gripped onto the anchor pendant plastered around my neck as I repeatedly muttered those same words like a psychopath.
“Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It’s the transition that’s troublesome”
Tears ran down my face as they drained my ey...
A fairytale.
The thing every child dreams about, the one true epic love story, the happiness that lasts a lifetime,the happily ever after everyone is longing for.
All has been crushed in this very moment, within a few seconds, with just five words.
“I’m sorry for your loss”
No words can ever muster up the agony in losing a soulmate. The unconditional love that clings to them no matter their f...
One place, thousands of experiences, both good and bad. I look down on all of those around me, when they past by in a haste or as if they have no care in the world. Loud noises always fill the city, flashes of bright colours fill up the once dark sky as they illuminate its surroundings and light up the city of love.
Every day and night, sunrise and sunset, a continuous cycle yet each time is as u...
The world came crashing down in complete chaos as I scanned my surroundings for her. The world was coming to an end as innocent people fought and grasped for their lives because of a mistake I had made. My mask that often framed my face perfectly hung from the side of my face and revealed half of my pained expression. Agonising screams filled the air as mothers clung to their children.
All this d...
Betrayal. The very reason the person I love most has now been exiled from my heart. The person who had once pumped the blood through my veins as it sat protected in the palm of his hand. The plans of the future are now no more as the past continues to haunt me. I stare blankly at the bed that we cherished, we shared and we had all our firsts in.
He stood there in the corner of the room with his a...
Muffled laughter filled the air around us, as if we were trapped in a prison of our own. Posters on the wall were suddenly the most intriguing thing we’ve both ever seen as we both fell deeper into the shallow end of the growing tension. The group project was now long forgotten as the nerves grew and loud voices infiltrated my mind.
The once towering brick walls that stood tall with my confidenc...
A loud excruciating silence now fills the atmosphere that once held and protected our most vulnerable past selfs. The deteriorating curtains fall slanted shielding the joys of the outside world. What use to be long walks to the park and endless amounts of freedom is now a black and white memory only you have the key to.
It’s a time I both loathe and ache for.
I miss hearing the ugly laughs that...