Is this what it feels like to drown?

Like slowly succumbing to the elements,

Am I meant to struggle more, should I wave my hands and attempt to to signal to someone

‘Hey! I’m here’

or should I just let her take me.

I close my eyes and listen to my heart

As the water fills my ears.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Was I ever really trying to swim?

Was I merely trying to keep my head above water

For as long as I could?

The danger comes when you aren’t sure why you are trying to swim anymore,

When you know you can’t.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

Is this what it feels like to drown?

Am I meant to keep trying to keep my head above water,

I’ve been struggling so long, what for?

Will she give me peace?

Thump. Thump. Thump.

It’s quiet.

The final fading slow beats of my heart feel louder.

Thump. Thump.