I was foolish to believe I could have something so pure. My past self laughs at me as I stare into the mirror. My grief standing right next to him. The screams I have kept in rise in my chest as the tears I have held back weigh me down. She never saw this side of me and never would. When I was with her, all of this melted away. She brought a peace to the violence that swayed in my mind. When she said those three words, I froze. Not because I didn’t love her back, but out of the fear that my darkness would outweigh her light.