I think I realized when I was 13, I didn’t like my best friend like other people liked their best friends.

I liked Ethan more than a best friend. I would constantly find my eyes drifting towards him in any direction or way, it’s like my mind was always thinking of Ethan.

At first, I wanted to cry and scream that I shouldn’t feel this way. It’s wrong, he thinks of me as a best friend never a girlfriend.

I never realized how much I hurt seeing him talking to other girls or girls flirting with him.

I mean of course girls flirt with him. He’s handsome his long shaggy blonde hair with his Crystal blue eyes. He’s a looker.

My heart ached as I saw him get flirted with every time, it felt like my whole world would stop.

It would go in slow motion as I looked across the room as Ethan got flirted with by another girl. They were whispering in each other's ears giggling about something only they knew.

I felt my stomach twist and my heart ached as I watched. I never knew how bad this feeling hurt but now I know.

I look away from the giggling teens. My eyes burning from holding my tears my stomach twisting as I stood there.

Suddenly a wave of nausea hit me and I ran outside trying to forget what was happening in there.

I pushed open the door and coughed all over the freshly cut grass when I was done I wiped my mouth with my sleeve and sat down on the concrete sidewalk.

I didn’t realize it but hot steaming tears ran down my face before I knew it. Maybe it was from puking or maybe it was from how bad my heart felt.

But the tears didn’t stop coming.

“Liv?”

I twisted my head around and saw Rthan standing there. “Y-Yeah.” My voice cracked.

Ethan’s face dropped he ran and sat beside me. “What’s wrong?”

I looked back up at the sky looking at the stars. I couldn’t do this anymore, I can’t hold this pain anymore. The one-sided love.

“We should stop being friends.” The words slipped over my tongue like a knife. The wind seemed colder after that.

“What.” Ethan's voice was filled with anger but his face was saying another.

I wiped my hot tears and looked over at him putting on a smile, “I love you Ethan and not in a best friend way.”