Can you hear the thoughts swirling in my head. Can you see the monster inside me, it has its claws in my soul and it won’t let go.

Can you feel the heavy weight of my thoughts off not being good enough.

Can you hear my voice sounding horse by all the thoughts iv screamed. Inside my head at his and times.

Can you see how scared iv become of myself

No you can’t cuz I don’t let anyone in

I smile and fake it all

You don’t wanna see my hurt

I’m to heavy for you to carry

If you saw what was in my head

You would let me let go

You don’t want to hear what I have to say

My story makes you so uncomfortable

Can you hear me?

Cuz I’m tired of fighting this

I’m tired of trying to be good enough for you

I’m not a machine I can’t turn off my emotions yet I’m scared when I do

You don’t like it when I tell the truth

Here it is

The memories of Beckah still hurt me

The pain I went through still lingers

And evertime it happens I get in a mode

Were I block everyone out

I listen to music to hear the words you never said

When I felt suicidal it was crimson who came to my aid

You think he’s a stranger well you don’t know him like i do

My daydreaming is getting out of control

Im slipping in all my chores still doing school

In the summer because of it.

I told you everything and yet you can’t here it