I ask I pray I do what you want But it seems like you don’t take into account It seems like your using me Just saying soon dear child Isn’t enough anymore It seems your scared But it seems you hate me Can you please talk to me Is all im asking Can you hear me

I see the cemetery out my window. The window frosts up and the mist creeps between the graves. I feel faded, foggy. Damp. My hand cuts through objects, my mind shifts through images of last night.

Stop. Please stop. Can you hear me? Is it in my head?

My ears ring, the soulless sound. I feel the way I move in and out. My vision elongates and statics. Stretching and warping.

It creeps up my body runs It’s fingers along my skin. I miss the way things used to feel real in my hands. I feel nothing. Numbness I’m fond of.

I see the cemetery out my window. I’ll join them soon.

I open my mouth to scream, But only a small noise escapes my lips. It’s like my lungs are being Filled with water And all I can do is gasp for air. I try to cry out for help But nobody comes… Can you hear me? Can you hear the absolute terror in my voice? I need help, I’m drowning in this house And need out… Some one please help me Before my voice goes silent, Before I loose this fight.

Can you hear me?

We hear that phrase so many times in our lives It’s a phrase that we both love and despise

It’s amazing really What that phrase can do It can make others be silent Force them to listen to you It gives you a power unlike any other To make others listen and see them cower

But on the flip side We cower in fear You silence our voices As the end draws near How will I survive I won’t always be able to hide If only you could see the damage you cause The lifes that are taken All for your own benefit

I’m screaming at the top of my lungs

“Hear me! Hear my side!”

All I got in return Was you simply protecting your pride

My family told me to keep my head down Stay in my own lane Don’t make a sound

But when I saw others in danger I couldn’t stand to the side I was raised with good values It was never about my pride

As I run forward while others run away I knew that this would be my final day I stand up tall as I face you I’m not afraid of heights I’m not afraid of this fall

So now here I am Standing for everyone who fell As I look at you face to face I can finally say my peace.

“Can you hear me now? I’m fighting for them not you I won’t just lay down and die You took everything from me I won’t let you do this to others

Can you hear me?

This is your final call”

listen close I am here I don’t make a sound but I am here can you hear?

look closely can you see? I go unnoticed slip through the cracks still I am here do you hear? do you see?

listen closer carefully now I’m silent but I am here I always have been

look closer that’s it I’m invisible but I am here and I’m not going anywhere I am here I’ve been here

can you hear me now? can you see me now? do you know me now? do you feel me? do you understand me?

you may not notice me but I am here I have always been here

hello? can you hear me? i’m right here… can’t you see me?

no… not you too… am i still invisible? trapped so deep within myself, that no one will ever see me.

the forest is dark here. and alone i wander. my feet get stuck in the cold marsh of memories as i drag my way through.

there’s a fog, it rolls around obscuring every truth in this path. warping beautiful things, and making them seem twisted.

i know the view through it isn’t true, but knowledge can’t change the fear.

the monsters that lurk here are viscous. they’ll tear apart every weakness they find. consume until i’m bare bones and hollow soul. and then they’ll wait in the shadows until i grow back a little meat.

i’m alone here. in this desolate dreary forest. you’ll never find me. i’m lost forever.

I’m tired of hearing who I’m supposed to be. And I’m tired of hearing the constant doubts. I want to have faith.

Please, Let me have faith.

As I embark on this journey today, I need to set my eyes on You, my lifeline. The world’s beginning to crumble like clay As I embark on this journey today. The plot’s upon us and time slips away; Beware that soon there will be no more “next time.” As I embark on this journey today, I need to set my eyes on You, my lifeline.

I stay screaming at you For help For love For anything For the littlest bit of attention

Smoke…. Smoke…. I tell you to smoke to let me out To let it all out To understand me better because you think I’m the problem

But you are the one hanging yourself screaming for help from others That will never help Or listen Or care

They can try to help but nothing will work unless you work on it

Can you hear me?

I wonder if you are really listening, Can you even hear me? I’m drowning alone, And you don’t seem to see.

I scream Into the void But you don’t seem To hear a word.

You’ll never believe me, You’ll say it’s all in my head, That I made a bad choice, So why am I not dead?

Or am I? Not quite dead, Not quite alive. You still can’t see it from my side.

You don’t hear a word I say, You don’t really even try. You can’t probably would never know, But every night I cry.

I never want to fight with you, I don’t want to be alone. But I don’t want to be hurt more, Life’s already been so cruel.