Im not quite sure what to do anymore

I’m lost

And everything I do seems to be so wrong

I’ve been locked away in my room for weeks

My parents are worried

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I want to fix it

But I don’t want to stay

I want to be done feeling like I’m constantly suffocating

I take the bottle of meds I don’t need

I take them all

And I’m awake