When I was little I looked at my reflection in a puddle

I was to little to notice any imperfections

I giggled and jumped into the puddle without a worry

I grew up a little more and it was my first day of school

My mom holds my hand as I walk in

A little older and I see a boy. He’s cute

A little older

I cry because i don’t have friends

But I don’t understand why

A little older

I...

I know we’ll hurt forever

Knowing what we have done

How could we do it?

Why?

I feel like this is something that I can’t recover from

I feel it stains my heart

I know in a year

When it seems okay again

When everything seems normal

When it’s quiet

I’ll be reminded

Of how I stabbed my own heart

Cut it into a thousand pieces.

And though you tried sowing it back together,

The scars are sti...

People often call silence peaceful

Maybe for them

But when I’m alone

The room quiet

The door shut,

The screaming begins.

My head will never let me rest

It will continue to drown me in thoughts and fears

Alone

Trapped in my mind

It’s a prison

That only entraps me for the crime of hating myself...

If wishes fell like rain, then certainly I am the storm

I’m constantly hoping for a different ending

That maybe one day I won’t be the one who is broken

That one day I will not be the broken nor the forsaken

I always imagine the scenarios in my head

Everyone wanting me

Me having scarless skin

But the day of my storm of hopes coming true will never come

So I’ll continue to kneel

To ...

Im not quite sure what to do anymore

I’m lost

And everything I do seems to be so wrong

I’ve been locked away in my room for weeks

My parents are worried

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

I want to fix it

But I don’t want to stay

I want to be done feeling like I’m constantly suffocating

I take the bottle of meds I don’t need

I take them all

And I’m awake...

I’m in love

My mother says it’s not real

That I’m too young

Maybe she’s right

But I know she’s wrong when I’m with them

The way they make me feel

Feeling their pain when their hurting

The warmth of them wiping away my tears

Knowing their disappointment when they see

marks on my wrists

Begging them to run far away with me

Them enjoying my oddities

And me enjoying theirs

My mo...

I wish I had never let go…

Im sitting at her grave again.

I’m here to lay with her

My Julie

My mom caught us laying together when she was still here

She screamed and yelled about how sinful two girls being together was

She might have been right

I didn’t want her to be right

I loved my Julie

I didn’t see Julie that much after that

We would sneak out to see each other occasionally

“We shou...