TW ED

you've caused me so much pain,

yet the love that i feel for you blinds me of it.

i've taught myself to turn my back

whenever you torment me,

whenever that sickly voice whispers

commands in my ear.

you are merely a voice in my head,

but you hold so much power.

never did i think that someone who

doesn't even exist

would be the bane of my existence.

but to me you exist as clearly as

the sun shows in the sky.

you are the realest friend that I've ever had.

but they don't call you a friend.

they say you're an enemy.

that you're out to get me...

killing me...

and i guess you are.

i haven't eaten in a week.

i'm losing the weight.

and i'm not proud of it.

i'm not proud that i'm letting you

control my life.