I have mixed emotions,

One day,the colors seem to brighten, sounds become more melodic and soothing for one day.

But inevitably, the next day a heaviness settles over me, weighing down my limbs and clouding my vision.

I dont like that feeling, The oppressive gloom

yet it comes, disturbing my peace.

Interractions with certain people seem to make me it worse.

Draining my energy until i long for solitude.

Their constant demands and critiques leave me on edge.

Is it quirk of brain chemistry?

Personality flaw?

Or merely the human condition, this ebb and swell.

I search for answers, that elusive solution.

When i go back home,

The storm clouds in my mind slowly begin to part.

Slowly, the tension eases from my muscles.

But the cycle inevitably repeats,

The flow of my emotions as unpredictable as the tides.

I wonder if i’ll ever find a way to stop these mixed emotions.