Storms have been the centre point of my life and my entire existance,

Constantly experiencing and delving deep in to...

Chaos and sudden upheaval,

Infinite debilitating breakages,

Complete carnage,

Intense bouts of dark clouds and deep emotions,

Sadness and grief,

Devastating heartbreak,

Deception & illusion,

Loneliness and neglect,

Abuse and terror.

Storms really have ruled and ran my entire existance.

Those that know me will tell you and laugh and wonder how I made it through.

For the longest time, I would pray for peace, calm and tranquility, and crave this more than anything but it seemed like the infinite wave of chaos just followed me around like a magnet.

Even when I've tried to hide in a cave and run from the heavy tides that seem to always flow my way, it just wouldn't stop.

I would ask God, why me? What have I done so bad to have the flow of incessant stream of hurricanes and storms run over my life.

I would cry, plea, and beg for the storms to just stop so I can just breathe for once.

I would wish for and crave a life more peaceful.

I would crave for a life like my friends who just had simple lives, with calmness and peace in their lives.

No storms, no chaos, and no pain.

Today I wake up and realise that the storms are starting to clear a bit and finally I realise were just a long string of ancestral wounding, feminine wounding, patriotic narcissism, destabilisation of my own power, demon attacks amongst other thinhs, with a bid to empower me to evolve the growth within my soul.

So now, we are here, after the storm and free from all the things that tied me down.

Free from fear, culture, religion, men, oppression, stagnation, stereotypes, expectations, judgements.

Now I'm in my strength and own the power of my own voice without anyone telling me who or what I should be.

The storms were excruciating to live through but now I see it bought me my salvation and freedom.

Pressure creates diamonds - it's my time to shine.