I wish i had never let go.

The sound of the hospital whispered in my ears, it was so loud, yet so quiet. I could hear nurses talking and the beeping of the heart monitor next to me.

How did i end up here? The last thing i remember was hanging out with my girlfriend. It was probably the best night of my life.

We were drinking and having fun. I think there was a movie on the TV, we were too focused on eachother to even notice it though. I remember seeing a glimpse of her smile as we played a 'try not to laugh' game. In the end, she ended up loosing.

I can't recall what got me here though. Maybe it was the smashing of the Vodka bottle on my head, maybe it was the loud screaming that sent me into shock. Maybe it was none of those, maybe im overreacting. I wonder what would've happened if i hadnt told her, it could've been fine, i wouldnt be here right now.

Maybe i shouldnt have told her i wanted to break up.

I wish i had never let go.