Bang.

Once, twice, three times. He fell.

Gunshots are like fireworks from hell.

I fall on my knees, I let the dam break

For all my despair could make the earth shake.

It’s over and done

Now he’s gone

Never again to see the beauty of dawn.

I’m shaking with fury, I’m teeming with rage,

He will forever be in death’s eternal cage.

Because of betrayal and lies,

And the sounds I despise.

***

Boom boom boom

In quick succession

One year since I lost you

A day I will never forget

But everyone else has moved on

And that makes me upset

You deserved more than the me that you got

Your innocence occupies my despondent thoughts

A mothers love for her son will never fade

So I’ll love you until the world melts away

You were perfect, and so depressingly young

I hung my head all dressed in black as the choir sung

A song of freedom and peace for all of eternity

But I’m still selfishly wishing you had never left me

***

Bang times thR ee

i feel like someone sh0t Mee

Ten long ye ars since you’ve been gone

Sam my baby m y perfect Sam

StoLen right out OF my oblivious Ha nd

Life ISNT FAIR I’m crying now

If only you could make your way to me somehow

I think I’m coming as we speak

These poshital lihgts ar

blin ding meee…

I’m coming Sam

I’ll see you soon

After all this time

I will see y o u . . .

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

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{A/N: the staggering of the stanzas and words and loss of grammar efficiency demonstrates the mother’s declining state of depression and grief for her son! It was on purpose.}