Hopelessly Invisible
I walk by,
Try to laugh.
Try to smile,
As I pass.
“Hey, it’s me!”
“Again?”
The crinkle of disgust-
Their faces say it all.
I don’t need to talk,
It’d be like a brick wall.
I wave this time,
A friendly thing.
One girl looks up.
My heart starts to sing.
I smile.
Is it worthwhile?
She smiles too,
My heart skips a few.
“We don’t talk with Her.”
The other ones say.
Ever so suddenly,
She looks away.
Great, misgendered and bullied.
All in one day.
I never want to speak again.
I am not seen, not now, not then.
I look at the floor,
Quickly stumble past.
I don’t want to see those people
Aghast.
I wish for friends,
Brave, true and kind.
My head tells me,
“You’re out of your mind!”
I won’t have friends,
As you can see.
Because friends, my dear,
Have got to see me.