As I walk

My shadow lingers

My presence stalks

With morbid fingers

I’m not to be seen

Even for a minute or two

They do call me the queen

Of being see-through

It’s not my fault they don’t see me

I’m just glad they don’t stare

They treat me so differently

When they don’t know I’m there...

I’m always there

In the corner

Never seen

Away from the world

When I speak

No one hears

If I disappeared

No one would notice

No one would care

It’s better that way

Walls so high

Away from pain

Till the end of time

Or I die...

nobody gives a care

unless it’s to bully me.

“you’re too slow! start running!”

“you can’t get me! nyanyanyanyanyanya!”

“how are those even push-ups?”

**_STOP BULLYING ME FOR THINGS I CANNOT CONTROL.

YOU IDIOTIC BOYS ARE GOING TO BE THE END OF MY SANITY.

_**breath in…

breath out…

and say nothing to them.

let the childish boys settle their own problems before you blow out at them.

assuming they ever...

TW: Emotional abuse/Emotionally Unavailable Parent

I wait in silence

For her mouth to stop opening

For her face to be calmer

For her foul-smelling breath to stop traveling into my face

I sit in silence

Hope she’ll stop yelling soon

Hope I can unfreeze

Hope my ears stop ringing

**_Ow._**

You just had to hurt me

Stab me where I actually feel the pain

Twist it in my back

& pull it out, only to r...

Can you even see me?

Do i need to speak more clearly?

Or possibly do i need to….

**_SCREAM?

_**

You can’t hear the voice in my head,

I named her existential dread.

But would you care anyway?

Or am I too…**_

Invisible?

_**

Can’t get a word out

Not that it matters much

You don’t hear me anyway

So maybe I will just….**_

Disapear?

_**I feel like I don’t exist

In a litteral and metaphorical sense

But...

If I talked to someone in French,

_ils ne me comprendraient pas_.

I’m not sure I would either, though.

I’m just a dull player on the bench,

and I’m the rain compared to snow.

No one bats a single eye at me,

unless their intentions are to judge.

I’m invisible, like I’m _caché de la vue._

No one will look, even if I scream_._

I’m only parchment, with its ink smudged,

no one bats a single eye at me,...

I’m forgotten in class

By my teachers and peers.

Invisible I am;

My face drowned in tears.

I’m forgotten at university

While my parents are at home.

They seem to live fine without me;

I’m utterly alone.

I’m forgotten it seems.

Invisibility cloaks my face,

Yet my feelings still rage,

leaving sadness my only trace....

You saw right through me,

Called me a different name,

Threw words at me

As if I was nothing…

Invisible.

I am invisible to your love....

I remember when I was maybe six years old

I would sneak junk food into my room tiptoeing down the stairs to the kitchen then I’d turn and move like the flash and shut the door

I think it was for me to feel like maybe my mom was listening and paying attention to my footsteps running up and down the stairs. I could pretend I had super powers too.

In reality I could have screamed at the top of my ...

Last Friday I found out what it is like to feel like a tree

Invisible and gone, they forgot about me

Like a ghost walking the crowded halls

Invisible and gone, they can’t feel me

I could break every law and rule

Invisible and gone, they wouldn’t see me

I could spill coffee all over myself

Invisible and gone, they can’t taste me

I could scream in the classroom or office

Invisible and gone, they...