She’s a child who doesn’t mind wandering

Who likes to walk around the same path

Twenty

Thirty

Forty times

She’s a child who stacks dolls in a row

And then leaves them there

Bears

Babies

Breathe in and out

Because she panics

Things are abnormal

Not where she left them

In

Out

In

Out

But she’s already crying

It’s not a big deal

It’s not the end of the world

But it was

And it is

And it will be again

She’s a child who abandons

Starting things anew

Just to forget about them

Untouched

Unloved

Unfinished

And she moves on

She’s a failure

A loose screw

Mom says how will you survive

I don’t know

I don’t know

Mom, I don’t know

She’s no longer a child

She lives on her own

College

Careers

Rent struggling to be paid

But that child is still there

She never left

And she is still in control

Distractions

Ramblings

Abandonment

I hate her often

I wish she were gone

So I could take the wheel

And steer

Row

Float

Safely to normalcy

But what is normalcy without her

There is none

Without that girl

I am

No one