Taking a deep breath in and out

Closing my eyes to the cool water

Maybe this time, It will be deep enough

And it the right spot

Blinded by a primal dizziness I cannot

See the other side

I know it’s there

Don’t I?

My boiling blood cools to its

Usual itchy temperature

Two degrees too warm

Straining my bloodshot depelted eyes skyward

I beg

I crawl before no one

But here I am on the ground craving