Taking a deep breath in and out Closing my eyes to the cool water Maybe this time, It will be deep enough And it the right spot Blinded by a primal dizziness I cannot See the other side I know it’s there Don’t I? My boiling blood cools to its Usual itchy temperature Two degrees too warm Straining my bloodshot depelted eyes skyward I beg I crawl before no one But here I am on the ground craving