A trickle of something old spills gently forth

Little green buds, chartreuse and hopeful

The top soil of my heart softens

Words on and off the page beckon

A great care rises up within me and -

The birds speak to me once more!

The great thaw has begun

Encapsulated in permafrost no longer, I jump

Too quickly

Loves, obscured and vibrant tussle for my action! I can do them all!

Well one at a tim...

I’ve hurt more than I care to admit

My eyes have wandered

Loved ones time squandered

In suffering I’m ccomplicit

But, perhaps a new day glows

Im not meant to see

All that is meant to be

The door the the past, I hesitate to close...

I wildly press my knuckles into my ears

Like a children’s Tylenol syringe

Squishing out every last drop of sound

All air is sucked out, with a zhooop

A near perfect vaccum, and

Frozen

I feel no surrender but

I no longer fight

For a time

All is omitted

I wait in the silence

In nothing

I wait

Nothing...

A crisp autumn day

We ran a 5K, or walked

I was unprepared

So welcomly caught off gaurd

Your soft hand enveloped mine....

I miss her

With every waking breath

And every little death

She’ll remind me I can’t locate a conifer

Then probably call me a jovial slur

She’ll want to ramble about the Black Death

And call me a fool for forgetting Macbeth

These are the daily affections I incur

I wish to kiss

That beautiful miss

And hold her all night

Every caress floors me

How lucky can I be

That incredulous nerd is Just. ...

I see the words shuddering on the page

Timless words, holy, thru an age

I’ve had enough of this toil and strife

What will I do with my will and life...

Scalding and sputtering my fingertips blister and bubble

A cloud fills the air as I drizzle all too quickly

I scrape with and unforeseen resentment

And plop

Coffin like, into a aluminum box

Then straight into a 400 degree incinerator it goes

My coffee cake...

Taking a deep breath in and out

Closing my eyes to the cool water

Maybe this time, It will be deep enough

And it the right spot

Blinded by a primal dizziness I cannot

See the other side

I know it’s there

Don’t I?

My boiling blood cools to its

Usual itchy temperature

Two degrees too warm

Straining my bloodshot depelted eyes skyward

I beg

I crawl before no one

But here I am on the ground cr...

She’s the one that holds me together

Softly nestled againt my heart

Always

The way she lifts here non existent eyebrows

Intangibly, as if to say

“Is that right?”

A protector

Beacon of Humility in a sea of avaricious atrocity

A bean

A bell

A lightbulb

She’s all I really need...

My darting shaking eyes can’t seem to realize

Nothing has happened

Nothing will happen

Nothing ever happens

The Yank toward the Precipice, dulled

Churning, roiling, my lungs, Hold me back

I’m not there yet

Will I be?

Can I be?

Have I ever been?

I cannot do another day at a time,

Ask me again in a week....