This is too much…

I can’t take this anymore.

I need to go and hide in my small nook—

Here in the bathroom,

I’ll leave the water running,

So you can’t hear me crying.

This is too much…

I can’t bear it anymore.

I am tired of hearing myself—

Here in the bathroom,

I’ll leave the shower gushing,

So I can’t hear me sobbing.

This is too much…

Water ripples through the drain,

But my tears keep falling like rain—

To the palm of my hands,

To my wrist…my veins.

So beautiful, pale, and cold…

What if I…

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This is too much!!!

Drops of water echo on the walls.

I need to get out of here!!!

Here in the bathroom.

I’ll never be defeated by you.

And I’ll never be a victim of myself.

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x, J.B./angeljerlin