My eyes slowly opening to catch the daylight

My soul slowly closing, hiding in shadows

My Heart slowly crumbling like dry leaves

Every day just the same

Good Morning

Good Night

But when am I supposed to live?

School

Work

Duties

Expectations

From the moment I open my eyes in the morning

Awaking from my sweet little dreams

Snatched from my peace

Forced to awake in the reality

A life I’ve never chosen

I have to perform

I have to wear a mask

But still it’s never enough

Always good never the best

Always helping never helped

Always loving never loved

Always admiring but never admired

Like I would live in the dark

In deep spooky shadows

Where no light finds a friend

Untouched from warmth and stillness

Far away from any peace and hope

Snatched from life

I have to meet everyone’s expectations

Even if that means I have to act like someone else

Someone I don’t want to be

But someone society expects

But still I have to be happy to live and be myself

Even if that „me“ doesn’t exist anymore

There’s just that made up version

Just a little sketch

Chaos

Drawn and designed by everyone but me

I have to go to sleep with hope in my chest

Even if, in reality, I never want to wake up again

Just sink into my own invented world

Far away from all the pain and hate

Created by the people who truly fear it