Dysmorphic Escapism
(Sorry this is crappy and I’ve barely written lately but I just felt like trying to express things somehow, oh and Tw for Ed’s don’t trigger yourself)
Wanderlust used to haunt me
Wanting to see the world
In all its beauty
Then
Wanting to fix it
Pick up the broken pieces
Put them together once more
Then
I saw you
I met you
I got to know you
You made me feel like even though
The world was falling apart
Still is
Things would be ok, with you
And in a way they are
But wanderlust has come back
This time for my soul
Let me escape from the mundane going ons
In this fat suit
Let me find different places to explore
In the highs of starvation
You want to give me the world
The fucked up
Burning world
Though you would rather shelter me
But I want neither
I just want skeletal
Skinny is no longer enough
Limits of 2000, 2 meals is not enough
It’s all bullshit
I want to stop eating forever
And you can’t stop me.