I’m walking down the street

As the rain comes down

It feels like hail

I keep my hood on

Till it started coming down it’s hardest

Once I am drenched

I let the tears roll down my face

Only I can see and tell

What is rain and what is tears

Once I start I cannot stop

For the rain hiding the tears it allows me to keep crying

No one will hear through the thunder

No one can tell what I’m feeling

I keep my sorrow in the rain

So I can stay hidden as I cry my tears run deep

Now it all comes back my past

It’s traumatizing all the memories that I tried to forget

They come raining down on me like nothing else ever has

I’m this moment may all the good memories vanish

All I feel is the pain in my head and heart

Tis is where I cannot move as I start feeling stif and numb

May there be a way to forget all this pain instead of keeping it all inside

Can I still change who I am

Or is this who I am deemed to be

I’m only 16 and it feels like this earth is cruel

There’s a lot of good people and good times but I haven’t had many

As the rain comes down I remember my past what I DID

Then comes what I seen and been through

No one can see my thoughts and pain

I smoke all the pain away like it never existed

I feel sorrow for myself as pain comes into my head faster and faster

It doesn’t stop this walk isn’t peaceful tis is painful may I ever forget my bad memories or does it deem who I become

Why am I so hurt why can’t I feel better

Well some people make the bad memories disappear

But the ones who do I want them forever may this happen

Or will they leave eventually

Will they actually stay by my side I may never forget what I have done and been through

But I always remember the ones who made me feel like life was good and sweet

This poem stops here as the rain starts messing up my typing typing is going blind may I clear my mind though these poems and let myself free all alone is the only time I can feel like this