M,

Me writing this letter is probably pointless. Considering we don’t exactly see eye to eye. How you feel is valid. But shutting me out is not what I expected from you. I will continue to write these letters for the sake of me letting my feelings be known. I know that I chose a horrible time to tell you all my feelings. 2am, in the middle of a parking lot isn’t exactly what I would call romantic. But I had to do it. I had to get it out of my body before it started to fully consume me as a person. It was already eating away at me every time I saw you with them. I just can’t get your face out of my head. The look that will be burned into my frontal cortex until the end of time. I know my timing was horrible. But I had to say it. Because I really do love you. You’re my best friend. You’re the first person I want to talk in the morning and the last person I want to say goodnight to. I miss everything about us. But you made it clear I guess. You don’t want me. You want them. All over the phone. 6 minutes of just horror that will haunt me forever. I just wish you could see my face and say it to me that way. Look me in the eyes and think of all the memories we have together and say that you never felt anything for me. Because I know deep down in your heart you do love me. You just won’t let yourself feel it. Or act on it. I’m not forcing you to do anything. You have made your choice. But just know that I will always care about you. I will always love you. Even if time goes by. I’ll wait. Because when you have what we have you see it through. You’re my penguin, my otter, my for life.

Love always,

- S