You never imagine what it's going to look like until you're there. In that moment, standing before Him. I had always pictured it to be bright, soft, and soothing - I waited for it to feel comforting, calm, serene - that never came. It was all in dusty ruins; a haunting and abandoned place that felt forgotten. There were no lights, no angels, none of what they had told me during my Sunday morning church sessions. His eyes are locked on me; I feel naked - every little thing I had done in my life came down to this moment and this moment alone. I am frozen. I want to run and hide, I can't. He is everywhere, He knows. I can feel him, it doesn't feel like the love of an all knowing God. It feels like resentment towards the very thing he had created. What now? I feel uneasy in this eternity. This is it.