Ever just look at someone and you’re so extremely happy and you think “wow this is everything I have ever wanted and more. My life is going great. I love it…..” but yet feel so empty and dark inside…. I have a loving man, a healthy baby on the way, job, house, food, god everything one should be happy about right. Yet, I feel…. lost. Not because I want anything different or want a change but…. honestly… I don’t know. Maybe I am just thinking too far in my head but I feel like something is about to pop up and everything is going to go wrong. Is that so bad? Should I be thinking about the negative stuff really? I just feel like the more I try to deflect what ever is causing me to feel this way, the worse it gets. I wish I knew what was making me feel this way. I want to talk to someone but what would I say “ oh hey. I have everything one person should be thankful about and shouldn’t be complaining but yet I’m feeling like I’m stuck in this dark place. Can you help me”, like who says this. I feel so lost. I have no one to talk to. The only person I really want to talk to doesn’t know about my struggle and how deep my problems are. I will always help everyone and those around me. Give anyone anything I have to see them not sad or cry but when it comes to me………… who do I have to cry on.