[Exhale] OKAY. It’s only my first day here and I don’t know what I’m doing. I thought I did but I just be lying to myself if I keep telling myself I do. What the hell even is this place? This is not what I signed up for, and everything I thought I learned in school is redundant as of this moment. Oh man, I didn’t think this situation would ever occur but what am I gonna do? It happened and I can’t go back and fix it. I’m a junior doctor for Christ sake and this is what life throws at me. I made a huge mess and a huge mess I made indeed. I gotta go back in OR and clean up the mess I made. I swear it was an accident. Fuck, it’s not gonna matter anyways, im not supposed to make any mistakes while surgery is performed. Oh damn. [facepalm]

“Oh there you l are, I’ve been looking all over for you.”

Oh hey, look I’m sorry-

“Don’t sweat it man. Accidents happen all the time, i ain’t gonna press you for it.”

Really??

“All you did was spill hot coffee”

Yeah pretty clumsy of me, I wish I hadn’t.

“Ah don’t sweat. It happens from time to time in here. You’ll be alright.”

I hope, I just feel bad.

“You’ll get over it. Let’s go.”

Yeah

“Oh and next time, try not to spill it on the patient”

Right

“And if you do, at least wait until they’re sedated”

Hehe, yeah my bad.

“Yeah, They’re screaming gets pretty annoying after 5 minutes.”

I’ll do better next time.