I didn’t know

That being tired could be a personality trait

That being tired could take away over my life

That is would suck away joy

And it would slowly break away the walls

I worked so hard to build

I didn’t know

That this wasn’t normal

That people woke up refreshed

And were not planning the day

Based on a crash bound to happen

I didn’t know

How much it would affect others

When I showed my tiredness

And let it hold me back

From helping

From learning

From doing

I didn’t know

How much being tired tolls on your body

Weakens your muscles

Takes your mind from commission

Slurs your speech

Sucks it all like a leech

I didn’t know

What tired really felt like

Its not yawning late at night

Or getting in bed early

But you would think so right?

I didnt know

Being tired

Was more than being tired

Or all the different meanings of tired

Because being tired

Isn’t just needing sleep

It is needing a break

And I didn’t know

Till I was the one to break