08/22/09 Saturday night-first date

I didn’t really think I would have that much fun, but me and Nathan really hit it off. He took me to the movies and he pulled the oldest trick in the book, he “Yawned” and his arm land around me. I pulled away from him and he looked disappointed, but I was just moving the arm rest in between us. Then I put his arm back around me. After the movie we went to the park and sat on the bench talking and looking at the stars.

08-24-09 Monday night-after school

I haven’t heard back for Nathan but everyone knew we hit it off. We weren’t officially together, but everyone acted like we were. The question I heard the most today was, “So, where is your boyfriend?” I always answer, “In my heart and mind.” All the girls were like, “Awwww that’s so sweet.”, but the boys were like, “Nasty! TMI! Why would you ever say that?” It was so funny though.

08-29-09 Saturday

I still haven’t heard from Nathan and he hasn’t been at school all week. I called him and texted him but he didn’t respond. I’m starting to get worried. I started asking if anyone had seen him, but no one has. I decided to go to his house. His mom was gone so I asked her, “Is Nathan home.” She shook her head no. I asked, “Do you know where he is, and can I go see him?” She said, “You can see him, but he probably won’t be too happy about it.” I asked, “Where is he?” She said, “UF health downtown. Go to the 5th floor tell them I sent you.” So i planned on going tomorrow.

08-30-09 Sunday

I went to the hospital and Nathan was there I went back to his room, and he asked, “Why are you here? Who told you I was here? No one was supposed to know.” I said, “Everyone is asking about you. No one else knows. I asked your mom and she told me I could come see you.” He said, “I wish you wouldn’t have come.” I walked to the bed and I stoked my fingers threw his hair. I asked, “Will you please tell me why your here?” He said, “I have a heart condition, they had to do emergency surgery, I’ll be fine in like two weeks but I can’t leave the hospital before then. I wish I would have told you, but I didn’t want you to see me like this.” The rest of the time I was there I was trying to convince him that every was going to ok.

09-01-09 Tuesday

Im heading to see him now. I got to the hospital and went back to see him and he didn’t look to good. I felt his forehead and he was running a fever so I called the nurse in. She started looking at a bunch of different things and then she went to get another doctor and a bunch of machines started beeping. I ran outside the room and yelled, “HELP, COME NOW, HE NEEDS A DOCTOR!!!!” About five of them ran in and started doing different things and some lady made me leave.

09-02-09 Wednesday

I slept at the hospital. It turned out that the surgery didn’t fix anything that Nathan couldn’t get better, but for now he is stable. They finally let me go see him. I walked in and I knew he wasn’t doing well but I said, “Whatever this is I’m going be here with you through it all. I love you, I know we only went on one date, but it was magical, when I didn’t hear back for you I was sad and worried. I really missed you.” He gave me his puppy dog eyes and said, “If I don’t make it out of this please find another guy, one who makes you happy, and one who will treat you right.” I smiled and said, “Anything for you.” He needed to rest so let him sleep.

09-03-09 Thursday

I woke up at like 3 a.m. to my phone going off. I looked at it and answered it. Nathan had a heart attack and didn’t make it. I hope I can make his wish come true, just not any time soon.