my eyes are getting cloudy now just like yours used too, but this time you didn’t ask if i needed eye drops. this time you said nothing.

i cannot find my phone with these cloudy eyes you have given me, so i will take yours out of your cold hands. no, i don’t need eyedrops cause my tears have fell onto the emergency call button as you fell to the ground.

_[911 what’s your emergency?] _

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my voice is shaky just like yours was, have you given me your voice too?

the operator is telling me what to do though i cannot hear over my own crys and cloudy eyes.

ill lie by your side until hope arrives, though you wont hear the sirens and my crys. you wont awaken, but why this time?

ill keep rubbing my cloudy eyes and cry the way i did for you as a little girl until this nightmare dies.

i’ll continue to cry cause mommy cannot fix it this time. ill rub my cloudy eyes though im not ready to say goodbye.