Drowning.

The cold current surpassing my head. I’m drowning in it like I want to end myself. But it’s not my fault. I don’t know how to swim. How to navigate these waters. These uncharted waters, which were so easy for others. I wish I knew how to swim here. I feel like the only one benched in a room of professionals.

I wanted to swim, so I let go.

Now I’m drowning and nobody knows.