You were so small when I got you

But so cute

And soft

And silky

And young

So very young.

I always knew there was a reason you were so smart.

But I never knew that that would backfire

And eventually end you.

I got lucky

I got so lucky to meet you

And live my life with you

And share so many memories and moments with you

It’s like I’m stuck in a dark room

Locked up

You hid the key

And now I’m searching for it with the torch you left for me

Everyone expects me to be okay

But I’m not

I’m far from it

Everything feels temporary

Like something’s going to happen to change everything up

Like you’re going to rise from your grave

And climb your way up to me

And climb onto my head

And then poo there

Like you used to.

When we were happy

When everything was good

You were the glue holding me together

Now I’m shattered

So bloody shattered.